Micro: "I think exercise is a good thing IF one is physically capable of actually doing a good workout without hurting themselves due to physical deterioration.. In some cases it just is not possible."
In all respect. This becomes an escalator down to hell-on-earth if you don't get off it. Future possibilities become increasingly unavailable the more you use totays's problems to put off today's actions.
There is ALWAYS something you can do to make tomorrow probably better than it will probably be if you do nothing.
I've been dealing with a very deadly illness since age 14. Somewhere along the line I realized I could either keep making excuses, in which case I was likely dead by age 40, or I could use the best available information to try to improve my odds.
I understand you have been through a lot, Micro. But you are still alive. I think you should take that as a sign that you are still under Contract, God/the Universe is still expecting you to fight.
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Do not go gentle into that good night
Dylan Thomas - 1914-1953
Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
And you, my father, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.