Nemo,DG, De, all of you,
I am not MAD at anyone. I am not upset with you.
I am at a state in my life where I must step away and seek some inner peace as the tempests of life are swirling around me in my personal life and I find myself not being who I normally am.
There are several crisis I am fighting at the same time in the family and my nerves are pretty well shot.
I need to "come apart" for a while so I do not take things going on with me personally out on you.
I mean, think of how absurd this is: I am arguing with people who also hold conservative principles and values because of differences between two candidate who also share many of those same values.
I must admit that I do not like what I see of myself.
I also must get some other issues taken care of regarding my elderly father who has dementia and a caregiver who has stolen from him.
Only he thinks she cannot do anything wrong... contrary to evidence.
Then I have siblings to deal with who are not very helpful. Add to this the stress of having PTSD and the panic attacks I get sometimes while simply driving on the highway being near an 18 wheeler and constant anxiety, it is a wonder I am not in an institution.
I had to pull off the highway last week due to a major panic attack with shortness of breath for fear I was going to pass out behind the wheel.
THAT is where my nervous system is at. Yes, I have flashbacks, all the classic things of any combat soldier and they are increasing due to the stresses of dealing with my father and some other things.
Thankfully my wife is understanding and knows.
I had a good day yesterday.
I NEED to take a break because I care about the members of this board. I do not want to take my problems out on you all, and I have already caught myself doing so. That is not right nor fair to anyone.
So, Please do not think it is anything anyone said or did. It isn't. I simply need to get back on my medications and to find my inner peace again.
I hope you will understand.
There are so many diversified folks here with distinct personalities all contributing to the common good of all. It doesn't get much better than that.
I leave Ribit in charge because he is a brother Marine and older than dirt! lol!!! (sorry ribs)
I may be back in a few weeks or a month or so. I just need time to get myself back to a better state where my nervous system and stress are under control and I am not taking things out on other people due to my own personal problems.
As they would say in the military, I need to be relieved of command at least for a little bit....
Please forgive me for being so reactionary toward you and your beliefs and opinions.
In America, everyone is entitled by the Constitution to have your won thoughts and opinions.
Please understand why I need to just simply get myself together and get my condition back under control. It is not your fault.
God Bless,
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